the week in between

hello my friends, i hope you had a jolly christmas. here, in my part of the world, we had a white christmas day with lots of snow. we are on lockdown again, so online ordering for groceries and last minute gifts, a cozy meal with the family, just perfect, the way i like it.

the week in between christmas and new year. it is such a special one. it’s like the world has stopped, ‘the holidays’ as people like to say:

  • we don’t have time to wake up or time to go to bed
  • we want to do many things and at the same time to do nothing
  • the christmas tree is still up, but the gifts are unwrapped.
  • we are stuffed with all the christmas food, but making plans for the new year’s eve feast
  • our mind goes back to the year that is ending, contentment and regrets all mixed up.
  • our thoughts go ahead for the year that is starting carrying plans and dreams.
  • the days are getting longer, the snow has melted but the air is pregnant and heavy, the winter isn’t done yet.

happy new year to you!

Lessons of 2020

2020 has indeed taught us many lessons. The vulnerability has been my major one. I’ve learned that I am vulnerable, I have limits and I need to respect them. I’m not stronger as I was in my 20s and 30s. My body and mind crave more attention. I need to set boundaries. This year I accepted that I’m an introvert and it’s OK to say NO and to prioritize my space, my moments of quiet.

My last post here was in October, I didn’t post anything in November. I had to evaluate my blogging path. I love all the connections and friends I’ve made during these 7 years of blogging. I’ve joined many challenges during the years and enjoyed them, but they were putting pressure on me. I was feeling obligated to post until in days that I had nothing to say. I don’t want this kind of pressure, it’s already enough everything that we go through with family, job… I wish this space to be free, a place that I can fly and create without boundaries, and not deadlines. So, from now on, no more challenges, only a few musings here and there.

Run from what’s comfortable. Forget safety. Live where you fear to live. Destroy your reputation. Be notorious. I have tried prudent planning long enough. From now on I’ll be mad.

Rumi

I’d be happy to hear how 2020 has been treating you, any lessons?