“Understanding is the first step to acceptance,
and only with acceptance can there be recovery.”
J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
I don’t understand why my mind can turn things upside down, can create memories and erase others. Exactly one week ago I had to make a split second decision, I was in lots of pain, I couldn’t think straight so my husband and son decided for me. I don’t want to go into details right now, I’m still processing the situation, but what I want to say here is that since a week ago I’m fighting with myself because I was weaker, I let go of my body and my will.
Yesterday my co-worker said that these feelings are part of the TRAUMA, takes time but eventually will go away. This word stayed in my mind, Trauma! I thought, it can’t be! I wasn’t in a car accident, I wasn’t raped … those things are the ones that cause trauma.
I did lots of reading last night about Trauma, and yes, it fits perfectly to my situation.
The process of recovery is long, and acceptance and understanding are part of it. So I’m journaling and journaling, trying to find answers between the lines.
Have a lovely Thursday!
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I had a feeling from your Instagram posts that something was wrong, Elizabeth. There are many sides to trauma and you’re right, the best thing you can do is be kind to yourself and allow yourself time to heal. I’m here if you need to talk, dear friend. xox
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Dear Grace, thanks so much for your support and always being present. These last 10 days haven’t being the easiest ones, but I’m feeling stronger now. Hoping this week I can be more like my usual self. Love and hugs to you.
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There are many forms of trauma — as is abuse. Each is real. Keeping you in prayer as you make this recovery, and learn more of yourself in the process. Take care ~~
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Thanks so much Becca, I’m learning and I’m recovering. Still seems that my mind is engulfed in fog, I’m taking easy and giving time to time.
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As it should be!
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That’s true. Trauma comes in many ways. Our bodies can hold trauma and once released amazing things can happen. Sending you loving, healing energy! One day at a time.
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I didn’t know that trauma isn’t always physical. Wish you a fast recovery.
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Thanks Indira, we are always learning! 🙂
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:), get well soon, dear.
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Trauma isn’t always physical, it comes so many ways. Be good to yourself, and heal up. Hugs to you.
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Thanks Wendy, hugs back to you!
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Thoughts are with you and wishing you on the road to recovery, however long that may be. We are all different, and thus handle things in our own way and time.
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Thanks my dear, it isn’t easy for sure, but i believe time is the best medicine. i’m giving time to time.
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🙂
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I am not sure if I actually like this, Elizabeth, but I hope things work out for you. It is hard letting go..I don’t do that well. Parker sends hugs.
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Thanks so much Lois, hugs back to Parker!
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